This letter is from the first boy I ever kissed. It was the summer before the 8th grade.
Dear Delilah,
How is it going? Not much is up! YOu were in Tenn. last year about the same time weren't you! You'll just have to guess who I knew that.
I'm glad you believe me! Well, the reason I said it was P., was when I ask him why you called me those names that's why! By the way who is Sherry, Missi, Trisha and Gary? I don't know any of them! I swear it!! I did write Delilah is a bi___! But that is all. And I wrote that before I knew all this stuff! I'm sorry! Do you forgive me! That's all I wrote! I didn't write all those other things.
I don't really have a new girlfriend! I still like Misti, but she never wrote me a letter, so I guess she doesn't like me! Oh Well! I'm used to it! Rejection that is!
By the way while I'm on the subject. When was I supposed to have said that stuff?
My favorite Beastie Boys songs are Slow & Low, Brass Monkey, Paul Revere, and Girls Girls Girls! Other favorite are Shake Down, Wipe Out, Rock Steady, Leon & Me, and It's tricky. My favorite new group is the Beastie Boys, Run DMC & The Fat Boys & Beach Boys together.
Yea, I guess I should've been there for the 4th, but I didn't have any way to get there. Sorry!
I forgot what happened the 23rd of May! Well, Paul never told me anything about not liking me! But I believe you! The alcohol must have affected his brain. I didn't start chewing, I just did it once at the lake that's all! I don't even know why I go to the Lake. Everytime I go someone says something I was supposed to say. Well, that's going to change! I'm really sick of it. I'll just be glad when I get away from it. Try to be nice and everyone steps on you! So I'm not going to be nice anymore! I'm sorry you had to see this in me, but that's what it has come down to! I'm tired of getting sh** on! (Sorry but theres no other word for it).
You lead a confusing life! But I understand it! Don't ask me how I just do!
Let me ask you one thing! Do I have any friends left at the Lake? Because after hearing all this I doubt! I don't believe all this! I haven't done anything!
I suppose you still think I'm a wimp! Don't you! Well if you do let me tell you a few things! I'm about 6 foot, 150 pounds! Not an ounce of fat! My arms are only 14 1/2 inches not very big, but extremely quick! My thights are 26 inches. I bench 170 not as much as I want, but I can squat 300, I've never worked out very much! My chest is 37 in., my waist in 31! Still think I'm a wimp! If you wanted to know that there it is, if not I am sorry! I've also heard you are very pretty! I heard that from a very reliable source! May I have a recent picture of you please? Well, better go!
P.S.
One more song
"Bad to the Bone"
P.S. #2 I told you I'm a Lover not a Fighter!
Bye Bye
M.B.
Friday, December 30, 2005
5-28-93
DELILAH
Your Birthday draws
ever so near
with it
the passing
of another year
you are as
a fine wine
only getting better
with the passing
of time
I can see
angels,
in your eyes
roses,
in your soul
and a heart
that will forever
glow
may peace be
in you heart
upon this day
I wish to you
the very best
of birthdays (5-29)
D.G (different than the previous D.G.)
Your Birthday draws
ever so near
with it
the passing
of another year
you are as
a fine wine
only getting better
with the passing
of time
I can see
angels,
in your eyes
roses,
in your soul
and a heart
that will forever
glow
may peace be
in you heart
upon this day
I wish to you
the very best
of birthdays (5-29)
D.G (different than the previous D.G.)
11/6/90
Sorry, I can't spell your name!
Hey! How's life? Great here. So I heard you and Matt broke-up. This might sound crazy coming from me but that's too bad! I thought you two really liked each other. And in case you're wondering, yes, I said you were hot. I'm sorry but it's the truth. Matt was very lucky to have been going out with you. I'd die for the chance! Well, I just wrote to say hi, I'll see you around.
S.
Hey! How's life? Great here. So I heard you and Matt broke-up. This might sound crazy coming from me but that's too bad! I thought you two really liked each other. And in case you're wondering, yes, I said you were hot. I'm sorry but it's the truth. Matt was very lucky to have been going out with you. I'd die for the chance! Well, I just wrote to say hi, I'll see you around.
S.
April 30, 1996
Delilah,
I've learned it's still not right. All the time at least. And the Paths we take aren't always the greenest of our beliefs. I've stayed too long. I'm past the last and light from darkened moons are simply lights. I recongnize and close my eyes and spin my 67. And when Booty's done and the sit is sung I take the road to find the truth. I've taught myself about image, and learning to survive, But what you want is what I want and that keeps me alive. Reality's inside of me and we can't live in dreams but we can find a way...
G.
I've learned it's still not right. All the time at least. And the Paths we take aren't always the greenest of our beliefs. I've stayed too long. I'm past the last and light from darkened moons are simply lights. I recongnize and close my eyes and spin my 67. And when Booty's done and the sit is sung I take the road to find the truth. I've taught myself about image, and learning to survive, But what you want is what I want and that keeps me alive. Reality's inside of me and we can't live in dreams but we can find a way...
G.
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
2/23/96
D-
You are indeed as busy as I! I must admit I haven't phoned (until recently) for quite a while- and when I have, you're not in. So, I've resorted to a medium which I don't use very often - a letter...
Yes, things are cool on this end. I've gotten a promotion. I'm a supervisor now, and more importantly I make $16 per hour. I've also started taking classes again. I must be some kind of crazy person. It's going to be soooooo difficult.
I'm getting a new car!! I am so excited than this pen can expess. Its a .... a real beauty! I'm supposed to get it on 3-15-96. So, when I take you out on a date we can ride in style. You hadn't forgotten about that had you? Well, I haven't forgotten, and I'm holding you to it.
Well is there a man in your life? (Men for that matter). I'm sure you're still playing the part of the sexy socialite - you always did have a way of bringing people out of their shell. In fact, I think that your openess and congeniality are the quatlities I most love and respect about you.
I would just love to have you for dinner some weekend (get your mind out of the gutter). Seriously, I am quite the chef - perfect for a first date. Well, hopefully I'll see you soon.
Love,
D.G.
You are indeed as busy as I! I must admit I haven't phoned (until recently) for quite a while- and when I have, you're not in. So, I've resorted to a medium which I don't use very often - a letter...
Yes, things are cool on this end. I've gotten a promotion. I'm a supervisor now, and more importantly I make $16 per hour. I've also started taking classes again. I must be some kind of crazy person. It's going to be soooooo difficult.
I'm getting a new car!! I am so excited than this pen can expess. Its a .... a real beauty! I'm supposed to get it on 3-15-96. So, when I take you out on a date we can ride in style. You hadn't forgotten about that had you? Well, I haven't forgotten, and I'm holding you to it.
Well is there a man in your life? (Men for that matter). I'm sure you're still playing the part of the sexy socialite - you always did have a way of bringing people out of their shell. In fact, I think that your openess and congeniality are the quatlities I most love and respect about you.
I would just love to have you for dinner some weekend (get your mind out of the gutter). Seriously, I am quite the chef - perfect for a first date. Well, hopefully I'll see you soon.
Love,
D.G.
November 6, 1995
Delilah-
Hey. How are you? How's Kent? Hey- I heard your school shut down for like 2 days? Is the T. situation going alright now? She was pretty upset last week. She said she wasn't going to Kent now and that you didn't even like her and everyone has seen you since you left, etc... So- is everything OK now?? Oh yeah- she also said she was a burden or a pest to you.
So- what's new? How's D.L. (see previous posts)? Is he your new man? He seemed pretty nice. You guys should come here and the 4 of us should go out and see a movie or something.
Things are going really good with D. Except last week or so L. went C. a package and D. freaked out. He doesn't want me keeping in contact with L. but I told him that if L. wants to call or write C. then he can. I'm not doing anything to make him call and stuff. I mean, I didn't even send him a father's day card because I don't think he deserves any of my efforts. But if on his own he decided to write, call, or send her stuff, then I think it's fine. D. says I should shut L. out because he doesn't send any money or hasn't been there for us. But I can't make that decision. That's up to her, right? I don't want C. coming to me in ten years and saying, "Why didn't my daddy love me enough to stay in contact with me?" Then I say, "Oh- he wanted to be in your life but I wouldn't let him." She would resent me forever and always wonder about him. Right? Anyhow, How's 9203? You guys really busy yet? We were so busy yesterday (catalog). It was like Christmastime already. We had huge holes all over the store. So- when are you coming here so we can go outto the flats? It better be soon. It's getting too cold outside!!
A few days ago I went Cosmic bowling with a bunch of people from work. It was fun. They had black lights everywhere and lasers on the walls. It was fun. Well- I guess I'm gonna stop writing now. Write me back soon and come home soon so we can go out. This timewhen you come home don't just call D. & G. - call me!!!!)
Bye! See ya-
M.
Hey. How are you? How's Kent? Hey- I heard your school shut down for like 2 days? Is the T. situation going alright now? She was pretty upset last week. She said she wasn't going to Kent now and that you didn't even like her and everyone has seen you since you left, etc... So- is everything OK now?? Oh yeah- she also said she was a burden or a pest to you.
So- what's new? How's D.L. (see previous posts)? Is he your new man? He seemed pretty nice. You guys should come here and the 4 of us should go out and see a movie or something.
Things are going really good with D. Except last week or so L. went C. a package and D. freaked out. He doesn't want me keeping in contact with L. but I told him that if L. wants to call or write C. then he can. I'm not doing anything to make him call and stuff. I mean, I didn't even send him a father's day card because I don't think he deserves any of my efforts. But if on his own he decided to write, call, or send her stuff, then I think it's fine. D. says I should shut L. out because he doesn't send any money or hasn't been there for us. But I can't make that decision. That's up to her, right? I don't want C. coming to me in ten years and saying, "Why didn't my daddy love me enough to stay in contact with me?" Then I say, "Oh- he wanted to be in your life but I wouldn't let him." She would resent me forever and always wonder about him. Right? Anyhow, How's 9203? You guys really busy yet? We were so busy yesterday (catalog). It was like Christmastime already. We had huge holes all over the store. So- when are you coming here so we can go outto the flats? It better be soon. It's getting too cold outside!!
A few days ago I went Cosmic bowling with a bunch of people from work. It was fun. They had black lights everywhere and lasers on the walls. It was fun. Well- I guess I'm gonna stop writing now. Write me back soon and come home soon so we can go out. This timewhen you come home don't just call D. & G. - call me!!!!)
Bye! See ya-
M.
1984ish??? 7th grade
This letter is sooo old. This boy was related to my neighbors and he sent it via Bobby. Too funny.
Dear Delilah,
I want to tell you something, I want to tell you I really care for you and I love you! Well that wasn't as hard as it was over the phone. I really do care about you like no other girl I've met. I want you to know that. I have a sincere question for you. WILL YOU GO WITH ME Please!
I love you,
R.W.
Dear Delilah,
I want to tell you something, I want to tell you I really care for you and I love you! Well that wasn't as hard as it was over the phone. I really do care about you like no other girl I've met. I want you to know that. I have a sincere question for you. WILL YOU GO WITH ME Please!
I love you,
R.W.
Friday, November 11, 2005
September 6, 1995
Delilah-
Hey. How's it goin party girl?? How's things? Meet anyone cool yet? (Besides Jason) Run into D. at all?
Things are good here. Work is just sh***y. Chris quit. That really sucks. I'm thinking about quitting. Also - there will be no seasonal dept heads this year! David Peachy told me personally!
I guess J. and S. still have that practice room thing goin on strong. They're kinda ABOVE me I guess. Whatever- So-how come G. got a phone call and I didn't???? Thanks for the postcared though. I was really suprised.
When are you going to come back for hte weekend? We HAVE to go out to the Whiskey or Trilogy or something - OK? No sneaking off with G. or something so you don't have time for anyone else. I'll get rid of D. for the night too so we'll have girls night out.
Well, write back soon. Have fun with all hot f****** long hairs! (long haired guys, it's just a dumb phrase we said in Florida)
See Ya-
Hey. How's it goin party girl?? How's things? Meet anyone cool yet? (Besides Jason) Run into D. at all?
Things are good here. Work is just sh***y. Chris quit. That really sucks. I'm thinking about quitting. Also - there will be no seasonal dept heads this year! David Peachy told me personally!
I guess J. and S. still have that practice room thing goin on strong. They're kinda ABOVE me I guess. Whatever- So-how come G. got a phone call and I didn't???? Thanks for the postcared though. I was really suprised.
When are you going to come back for hte weekend? We HAVE to go out to the Whiskey or Trilogy or something - OK? No sneaking off with G. or something so you don't have time for anyone else. I'll get rid of D. for the night too so we'll have girls night out.
Well, write back soon. Have fun with all hot f****** long hairs! (long haired guys, it's just a dumb phrase we said in Florida)
See Ya-
March 14, 1996
Dear Delilah,
Thanks for the note. I'm glad to hear you are doing well. D. is doing fine too, although I think he'd settle for a little romance in his life if he could find some.
Since getting his first set of A's from Kent, D. has spoken of his need and some efforts to renew his relationship with you. At this time, he's under the impression that you don't & never will want him back. He's hurt and is even considering changing schools to put some distance between himself and you. I deep hoping he will fing ways to resolve his regret over losing you - and if possible even win you back if it's meant to be. I pray faithfully that everything will work out for the best. I can't help feeling that if the 2 of you could just get on the same wavelength for 30 minutes, you'd find you both still care a lot about each other. At least we can see he cares deeply for you, a caring that could mature if he had a chance and the time to work at it. He's had little experience at love. You may have been the one he'll be always sorry got away. If I had the magic and the wand, I'd make it okay again for you both.
Still thinking of you.
L.
Thanks for the note. I'm glad to hear you are doing well. D. is doing fine too, although I think he'd settle for a little romance in his life if he could find some.
Since getting his first set of A's from Kent, D. has spoken of his need and some efforts to renew his relationship with you. At this time, he's under the impression that you don't & never will want him back. He's hurt and is even considering changing schools to put some distance between himself and you. I deep hoping he will fing ways to resolve his regret over losing you - and if possible even win you back if it's meant to be. I pray faithfully that everything will work out for the best. I can't help feeling that if the 2 of you could just get on the same wavelength for 30 minutes, you'd find you both still care a lot about each other. At least we can see he cares deeply for you, a caring that could mature if he had a chance and the time to work at it. He's had little experience at love. You may have been the one he'll be always sorry got away. If I had the magic and the wand, I'd make it okay again for you both.
Still thinking of you.
L.
September 5, 1995
Dear Delilah-
Great to hear from you. We wish you well at Kent. Sounds like you're off to a good start.
We've heard from D. several times by phone. He sounds snowed under by the load he has. He stayed at Kent State over Labor Day to catch up. I think he'll be a changed guy when he gets his first set of A's. Right now he's a bear. He's 5th chair cello and wants to be 1st. Has no concept of the honor to be sitting 5th and getting paid for it while many others probably never made it. When I call the phone just rings too, so we wait for him to call which thank God he has. We keep you inour thoughts and prayers along with our beloved son.
Hang in there.
L.
Great to hear from you. We wish you well at Kent. Sounds like you're off to a good start.
We've heard from D. several times by phone. He sounds snowed under by the load he has. He stayed at Kent State over Labor Day to catch up. I think he'll be a changed guy when he gets his first set of A's. Right now he's a bear. He's 5th chair cello and wants to be 1st. Has no concept of the honor to be sitting 5th and getting paid for it while many others probably never made it. When I call the phone just rings too, so we wait for him to call which thank God he has. We keep you inour thoughts and prayers along with our beloved son.
Hang in there.
L.
Thursday, November 10, 2005
Sept. or Oct. 1995
Dear Delilah,
I hope you thought this joke was funny, because if not, you probably won't be writing my for a while. I thought it was d*** hilarious) So, anyway...How are you doing? I hope you're not studying too hard. As for myself, I've been really laid back with my studying lately. I hate Kent Stark, and after visiting the main campus Monday I am hating Stark even more. Kent Stark is basically high school with ashtrays. I want to get to the main campus as soon as possible. This Friday (Oct. 6) I'll be visiting Kent main again for some sort of careet day thing. Maybe I'll see you .
In all honesty (the joke put aside) I think it's too bad about what's going on between you and D. D. is a good friend of mine and I don't understand why he's being so cheesy, Oh well. I guess there is always that Jason (Chonko...ha ha) or big blond brother boyfriend or whatever the h*** his name is.
You know what? Holly was supposed to write me but I still haven't heard fromher. Ihave a feeling we won't get hooked up together. Last year when I was in high school I tried to get hooked up with her, but she gave me the big shaft. I gave her a dozen roses one night because she was in the school play, and the week later she wouldn't talk to me and started fooling around with some other guy. Holly is the biggest **** ****** in the world. I should have learned a lesson from what she did to me last year, but I still like her a lot. What 's wrong with me. I am obsessed with her. Holly, holly , holly, holly, holly, holly!!!
I have a funny story about S. Well, maybe not so funny for him... Well, okay it's not so funny. This girl that S was interested in named Devon pressed charges against S for "stalking" her. I guess one night S (like a big monkey a**) paged this girl like five times. I guess this girl didn't want to talk to him so the next day she told S to leave her alone. That same day (by coincidence, S says) S ended up going to the "Winking Lizard" and that girl Devon hapened to be there. I guess that's when she freaked out and pressed charges against him. Steve's real eldgy about the whole thing and is just a pain in the a** to be around now. I can't wait for the week to end.
Grandparent story telling time
The other day my grandpa couldn't find his false teeth. He was marching around the house yelling and howlering "I cna't find my d*** false teeth," And just as some company we had been expecting arrived, he stopped dead in his tracks, pulled his false teeth from his mouth and said "here they are" and held his teethe upin the air for all of our compaty too see. What a moron. He wasn't in the slightest embarrassed.
Your Letters are rad??? Keep writing okay?
I have to go away!!! You letters are sad. Keep wriing.
I have to go now to I hope to see or rear from you soon.
I hope you thought this joke was funny, because if not, you probably won't be writing my for a while. I thought it was d*** hilarious) So, anyway...How are you doing? I hope you're not studying too hard. As for myself, I've been really laid back with my studying lately. I hate Kent Stark, and after visiting the main campus Monday I am hating Stark even more. Kent Stark is basically high school with ashtrays. I want to get to the main campus as soon as possible. This Friday (Oct. 6) I'll be visiting Kent main again for some sort of careet day thing. Maybe I'll see you .
In all honesty (the joke put aside) I think it's too bad about what's going on between you and D. D. is a good friend of mine and I don't understand why he's being so cheesy, Oh well. I guess there is always that Jason (Chonko...ha ha) or big blond brother boyfriend or whatever the h*** his name is.
You know what? Holly was supposed to write me but I still haven't heard fromher. Ihave a feeling we won't get hooked up together. Last year when I was in high school I tried to get hooked up with her, but she gave me the big shaft. I gave her a dozen roses one night because she was in the school play, and the week later she wouldn't talk to me and started fooling around with some other guy. Holly is the biggest **** ****** in the world. I should have learned a lesson from what she did to me last year, but I still like her a lot. What 's wrong with me. I am obsessed with her. Holly, holly , holly, holly, holly, holly!!!
I have a funny story about S. Well, maybe not so funny for him... Well, okay it's not so funny. This girl that S was interested in named Devon pressed charges against S for "stalking" her. I guess one night S (like a big monkey a**) paged this girl like five times. I guess this girl didn't want to talk to him so the next day she told S to leave her alone. That same day (by coincidence, S says) S ended up going to the "Winking Lizard" and that girl Devon hapened to be there. I guess that's when she freaked out and pressed charges against him. Steve's real eldgy about the whole thing and is just a pain in the a** to be around now. I can't wait for the week to end.
Grandparent story telling time
The other day my grandpa couldn't find his false teeth. He was marching around the house yelling and howlering "I cna't find my d*** false teeth," And just as some company we had been expecting arrived, he stopped dead in his tracks, pulled his false teeth from his mouth and said "here they are" and held his teethe upin the air for all of our compaty too see. What a moron. He wasn't in the slightest embarrassed.
Your Letters are rad??? Keep writing okay?
I have to go away!!! You letters are sad. Keep wriing.
I have to go now to I hope to see or rear from you soon.
September 15, 1995
I would like to preface this post by saying in September 1995 I moved to Kent State University. That summer I had broken off my engagement to D.S. (see previous posts) and went a little wild. It didn't get much better when I got to Kent. I recieved a lot of letters from the friends I left behind.
D-
Pretty hectic 'round here. Lots of stuff goin' on. Work Sucks, Life Sucks, I'm broke, I'm tired, I'm lonely, my hairs falling out, my shoes don't fit, a red shirt got in with the whites, I coughed up dirt for 3 days. C. is too busy to practice, we're trying to learn new songs. I have writers block. Everyone's either mad at me or thinks I'm creepy, when all I really want to do is curl up into a shell and hide. I miss you, I miss T., I miss myself...I don't know what's real anymore. So, how've you been? Hope to see you soon!!!
I miss you.
G.
D-
Pretty hectic 'round here. Lots of stuff goin' on. Work Sucks, Life Sucks, I'm broke, I'm tired, I'm lonely, my hairs falling out, my shoes don't fit, a red shirt got in with the whites, I coughed up dirt for 3 days. C. is too busy to practice, we're trying to learn new songs. I have writers block. Everyone's either mad at me or thinks I'm creepy, when all I really want to do is curl up into a shell and hide. I miss you, I miss T., I miss myself...I don't know what's real anymore. So, how've you been? Hope to see you soon!!!
I miss you.
G.
Monday, October 24, 2005
August 30, 2001
-Delilah-
Hey. I figured I would write a letter to you. It's about 5:30 right now. I haven't used my laptop or studied for any of my class stuff, it's al been in my book bag the whole time. At 3:30 the doorbell rang, so I went downstairs to see who it was. It was a guy by the name of A.W. He was looking for a place to stay for the night. Someone had told him about church on Cuyahoga Falls Ave. He wanted assistance in trying to find the church. I decided to invite him into the shelter while I tried to find the church in the Community Resource notebook. I couldn't find any church that had a shelter on Cuyahoga Falls Ave. So I referred him to Haven of Rest. It turns out (according to A.) that he missed the Haven of Rest time by 3 minutes. Then I decided to call the info line and let him talk to the info line and hopefully they could find a place for him to stay. Well, to no avail they couldn't find a place for him. After he hung the phone up, I asked him if he was hungry or anything. He said he was hungry, so I let him get some food out of the fridge and warm it up and eat. He was talking his head off while eating the food. He went inot a story about how his car was high jacked and he had to go to the hospital for 6-9 stitches. He continued talking about how his girlfriend is a little psycho. He is originally from Baltimore and has only lived in Akron for about 5 weeks. He is planning to get back to Baltimore because that is where his girlfriend is living right now. He went on and on. I can't remember what all he talked about. It was very interesting. I'm going to end my letter here. Sorry I wanted to write some more things down about us. Maybe I can do that next time.
J.
Hey. I figured I would write a letter to you. It's about 5:30 right now. I haven't used my laptop or studied for any of my class stuff, it's al been in my book bag the whole time. At 3:30 the doorbell rang, so I went downstairs to see who it was. It was a guy by the name of A.W. He was looking for a place to stay for the night. Someone had told him about church on Cuyahoga Falls Ave. He wanted assistance in trying to find the church. I decided to invite him into the shelter while I tried to find the church in the Community Resource notebook. I couldn't find any church that had a shelter on Cuyahoga Falls Ave. So I referred him to Haven of Rest. It turns out (according to A.) that he missed the Haven of Rest time by 3 minutes. Then I decided to call the info line and let him talk to the info line and hopefully they could find a place for him to stay. Well, to no avail they couldn't find a place for him. After he hung the phone up, I asked him if he was hungry or anything. He said he was hungry, so I let him get some food out of the fridge and warm it up and eat. He was talking his head off while eating the food. He went inot a story about how his car was high jacked and he had to go to the hospital for 6-9 stitches. He continued talking about how his girlfriend is a little psycho. He is originally from Baltimore and has only lived in Akron for about 5 weeks. He is planning to get back to Baltimore because that is where his girlfriend is living right now. He went on and on. I can't remember what all he talked about. It was very interesting. I'm going to end my letter here. Sorry I wanted to write some more things down about us. Maybe I can do that next time.
J.
August 13, 2001
-Delilah-
Well, I was thinking during the overnight shift about you. Well, not about you but more about our relationship and what it is looking like etc, etc. I guess and I am assuming it's safe to say we are dating considering how much we've done together and all the phone calls, even though they have lasted 2 or 3 minutes on some of them. I think I have totally lost where I was going with this letter in the midst of my mumble jumble of words. I think it would be best for me to end this letter right here. Because right now I'm not very coherent since I only got about 3-4 hours of sleep yesterday. Maybe I'll try this letter again tonight during the overnight. Hopefully it will go better. Alrighty, I hope you have a splendid day. Don't try to do to much work. I'll talk to you later.
J.
Well, I was thinking during the overnight shift about you. Well, not about you but more about our relationship and what it is looking like etc, etc. I guess and I am assuming it's safe to say we are dating considering how much we've done together and all the phone calls, even though they have lasted 2 or 3 minutes on some of them. I think I have totally lost where I was going with this letter in the midst of my mumble jumble of words. I think it would be best for me to end this letter right here. Because right now I'm not very coherent since I only got about 3-4 hours of sleep yesterday. Maybe I'll try this letter again tonight during the overnight. Hopefully it will go better. Alrighty, I hope you have a splendid day. Don't try to do to much work. I'll talk to you later.
J.
Friday, October 07, 2005
August 14, 2001
-Delilah-
Well, this overnight shift went pretty well for me. I stayed awake without a problem. I spent a lot of the time looking stuff (majors) up on Akron U.'s web-site. I think I might have what I want to study narrowed down to two majors now. I've decided on Middle education (teaching 4-9 grades) or Sociology & Corrections. I don't know a whole lot about Sociology & Corrections so I'm going to need to do some research on that area.
I still can't believe that you went to Borders without me last night. Oh well. I guess there will be another time to go. I must apologize for my handwriting today, for some reason it looks much worse than usual. I probably won't get a chance to talkt to you, unless I come in a little earlier. I don't forsee that happening at all. I think I will try to get as much sleep as possible to before having to come back in at 4.
Did I tell you J. told me what I will most likely be working once school starts? I don't think I did, so I'll go ahead and tell you. It looks like I'll be working Tuesday's 4-12, Thurdays 8:30-4:30, every other Friday 4-12, and Saturday overnights. I'm pretty happy with that schedule.
I think I'll be working Thurday-Monday doing overnights this week. I haven't heard for sure. But I am hoping that I am because I can use the extra money big time. Aw man I just have 1 hour left till I go home. Are you wanting to go to church with me on Sunday? I'm not sure wher I want to go. I've been thinking about checking out "Community of Believers" or well, I'm not sure where else. I think my parents are going to "Community of believers" on Sunday.
You only have 17 more days until you get to move. I think when you move I am going to get some DVDs and crash at your place. If you still have the bunny maybe I'll try to play with it and see if it'll bite me.
Did you tell Dawn we went to the mall and then to the movies on Friday? I'm tring to think of something fun but yet inexpensive we can do this week-end. How about the zoo? I haven't been there yet. You have a pass and I can get a pass, so it would be pretty inexpensive. We can go to an Aeros game if they're playing.
I think I'm going to get a haircut tommorow. Should I get it all chopped off or chould I just get a trim? I'm kind of getting used to it being long. It hasn't been this long since about 2 1/2 years ago. I think I might just get a trim.
Well, I am starting to ramble again I hope you have a great day and I will probably talk to you tommorow.
J.
Well, this overnight shift went pretty well for me. I stayed awake without a problem. I spent a lot of the time looking stuff (majors) up on Akron U.'s web-site. I think I might have what I want to study narrowed down to two majors now. I've decided on Middle education (teaching 4-9 grades) or Sociology & Corrections. I don't know a whole lot about Sociology & Corrections so I'm going to need to do some research on that area.
I still can't believe that you went to Borders without me last night. Oh well. I guess there will be another time to go. I must apologize for my handwriting today, for some reason it looks much worse than usual. I probably won't get a chance to talkt to you, unless I come in a little earlier. I don't forsee that happening at all. I think I will try to get as much sleep as possible to before having to come back in at 4.
Did I tell you J. told me what I will most likely be working once school starts? I don't think I did, so I'll go ahead and tell you. It looks like I'll be working Tuesday's 4-12, Thurdays 8:30-4:30, every other Friday 4-12, and Saturday overnights. I'm pretty happy with that schedule.
I think I'll be working Thurday-Monday doing overnights this week. I haven't heard for sure. But I am hoping that I am because I can use the extra money big time. Aw man I just have 1 hour left till I go home. Are you wanting to go to church with me on Sunday? I'm not sure wher I want to go. I've been thinking about checking out "Community of Believers" or well, I'm not sure where else. I think my parents are going to "Community of believers" on Sunday.
You only have 17 more days until you get to move. I think when you move I am going to get some DVDs and crash at your place. If you still have the bunny maybe I'll try to play with it and see if it'll bite me.
Did you tell Dawn we went to the mall and then to the movies on Friday? I'm tring to think of something fun but yet inexpensive we can do this week-end. How about the zoo? I haven't been there yet. You have a pass and I can get a pass, so it would be pretty inexpensive. We can go to an Aeros game if they're playing.
I think I'm going to get a haircut tommorow. Should I get it all chopped off or chould I just get a trim? I'm kind of getting used to it being long. It hasn't been this long since about 2 1/2 years ago. I think I might just get a trim.
Well, I am starting to ramble again I hope you have a great day and I will probably talk to you tommorow.
J.
August 20, 2001
-Delilah-
Well, I had a great time on Sunday. I think you clicked with my family. It was pretty cool to see that. I told you there was nothing to be nervous about. I'm thinking we should go on a walk or bike ride this evening. We can go on a walk about anywhere. We can go on a bike ride on the tow path. I'm not sure what the weather is suppose to be like. Hopefully it will be nice out.
You can pick the next church that we go to. I'm sorry if "Community of Believers" shocked you a little bit. I enjoyed it for the most part. The preaching was a little dry, but it was okay. I've been praying about the whole thing with you and D. for the past week. I've also been praying for our relationship.
Since we talked on the phone for about 1 1/2 hours. I don't think it leaves me a whole lot to write about. And I was off to such a good start too.
I suppose we can go to your new apartment if it's possible and then head to the library to see what DVDs they have. Maybe I could check out a book also I need to start reading a book pretty soon. It has been a while since the last one I read. Well, I will give you a call at some point today to see if anything is up.
Chow-
J.
Well, I had a great time on Sunday. I think you clicked with my family. It was pretty cool to see that. I told you there was nothing to be nervous about. I'm thinking we should go on a walk or bike ride this evening. We can go on a walk about anywhere. We can go on a bike ride on the tow path. I'm not sure what the weather is suppose to be like. Hopefully it will be nice out.
You can pick the next church that we go to. I'm sorry if "Community of Believers" shocked you a little bit. I enjoyed it for the most part. The preaching was a little dry, but it was okay. I've been praying about the whole thing with you and D. for the past week. I've also been praying for our relationship.
Since we talked on the phone for about 1 1/2 hours. I don't think it leaves me a whole lot to write about. And I was off to such a good start too.
I suppose we can go to your new apartment if it's possible and then head to the library to see what DVDs they have. Maybe I could check out a book also I need to start reading a book pretty soon. It has been a while since the last one I read. Well, I will give you a call at some point today to see if anything is up.
Chow-
J.
Early August 2001
Delilah-
Well it's 4am and I'm bored. So I figured I would pass time by, by writing you a little letter. I am not much of a letter writer by any stretch of the imagination. Letters basically force you to put your thoughts or feelings on paper. Besides that I don't really care to share my thoughts verbally either.
I am heading down to Columbus on Friday to see my brother. Actually I'm going with my parents. My brother, E. has a trial because his wife is asking for a divorce and has also filed domestic violence charges against him. It is all a bunch of bush a.k.a. "bull sh**". Anyways I'm heading down there friday for the trial and to see my brother and hopefully my niece and nephew (A. & M.). It should be interesting, to say the least.
Any luck with finding an apartment yet? Oh, by the way I got your phone messages you left for me. I must have been really in a deep sleep because the phone usually wakes me up if I'm sleeping. I talked to M. tonight and I think we are going to switch shifts on Saturday. He's going to take my 4-12 and I'm going to do the over-night for him. It's not really worth doing just one over-night, it messes with my body too much. So that will give me 3 over-nights in a row. It'll be interesting to see how long it takes m body to adjust back to regular hours once I'm finished doing over-nights this month. Hopefully it doesn't take long because I have a 7:45 class every morning but Thursdays.
Are you interested in joining me for another church service this Sunday? I want to go to "Community of Believers". It is on State Rd. between Portage Trail and Broad Ave. The service starts at 10. Which means you'd have to be at my place close to 9:40-9:45. If you want to join me let me know.
Did you know that I have to come back in at 4 this afternoon and work till 12. That's kind of crazy. Hopefully I'll be abel to fall asleep right away when I get home from the overnight shift. Maybe if you're lucky you'll get to see me before you head home today. Or should I say if I'm lucky I'll get to see you?
Do you want to go to the Aero's game this Friday? They're giving away free floppy hats. What is a floppy hat? And what in the world is an Aero? Does anybody really know? You can't tell me I didn't give you enough warning this time. But I am sure you will come up with one of your lame excses again.
Did you watch any of the Brickyard 500? I did. I watched the last 5 laps of it. Jeff Gordon won it for the third time. Ok, I'm runing out of things to write and I'm just blabbing about nothing now. I'll take a little break and come back to this letter.
Ok. Never mind about church this Sunday. I forgot you had your class reunion picnic. I think I might just sleep most the day Sunday.
There is also an Aero's game on Thursday if you can't make the Friday game. Well it is 6am right now which means I need to take care of some things. Have a great day.
J.
Well it's 4am and I'm bored. So I figured I would pass time by, by writing you a little letter. I am not much of a letter writer by any stretch of the imagination. Letters basically force you to put your thoughts or feelings on paper. Besides that I don't really care to share my thoughts verbally either.
I am heading down to Columbus on Friday to see my brother. Actually I'm going with my parents. My brother, E. has a trial because his wife is asking for a divorce and has also filed domestic violence charges against him. It is all a bunch of bush a.k.a. "bull sh**". Anyways I'm heading down there friday for the trial and to see my brother and hopefully my niece and nephew (A. & M.). It should be interesting, to say the least.
Any luck with finding an apartment yet? Oh, by the way I got your phone messages you left for me. I must have been really in a deep sleep because the phone usually wakes me up if I'm sleeping. I talked to M. tonight and I think we are going to switch shifts on Saturday. He's going to take my 4-12 and I'm going to do the over-night for him. It's not really worth doing just one over-night, it messes with my body too much. So that will give me 3 over-nights in a row. It'll be interesting to see how long it takes m body to adjust back to regular hours once I'm finished doing over-nights this month. Hopefully it doesn't take long because I have a 7:45 class every morning but Thursdays.
Are you interested in joining me for another church service this Sunday? I want to go to "Community of Believers". It is on State Rd. between Portage Trail and Broad Ave. The service starts at 10. Which means you'd have to be at my place close to 9:40-9:45. If you want to join me let me know.
Did you know that I have to come back in at 4 this afternoon and work till 12. That's kind of crazy. Hopefully I'll be abel to fall asleep right away when I get home from the overnight shift. Maybe if you're lucky you'll get to see me before you head home today. Or should I say if I'm lucky I'll get to see you?
Do you want to go to the Aero's game this Friday? They're giving away free floppy hats. What is a floppy hat? And what in the world is an Aero? Does anybody really know? You can't tell me I didn't give you enough warning this time. But I am sure you will come up with one of your lame excses again.
Did you watch any of the Brickyard 500? I did. I watched the last 5 laps of it. Jeff Gordon won it for the third time. Ok, I'm runing out of things to write and I'm just blabbing about nothing now. I'll take a little break and come back to this letter.
Ok. Never mind about church this Sunday. I forgot you had your class reunion picnic. I think I might just sleep most the day Sunday.
There is also an Aero's game on Thursday if you can't make the Friday game. Well it is 6am right now which means I need to take care of some things. Have a great day.
J.
March 3, 2001
Delila,
Just a note to thank you for the loving care you give C. He can be a challenge but he's also adorable. Thank you for the nuturing you give him. He's growing emotionally because of your involvement with him. He knows he can count on you and we need people who care for us.
Thanks,
G. aka J.S.
Just a note to thank you for the loving care you give C. He can be a challenge but he's also adorable. Thank you for the nuturing you give him. He's growing emotionally because of your involvement with him. He knows he can count on you and we need people who care for us.
Thanks,
G. aka J.S.
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
My Side....
My friend made me this scrapbook a long time ago and she photocopied letters I wrote to her during college. I was looking through it and I found a segment of a letter that goes along with the two D.L. letters previously posted.
So, I finally talked to D. It wasn't a pretty sight. He begged me not to break up with him. I told him that was ridiculous because we have NOTHING in common. And I told him just about everything I didn't like about him. Everything except the fact that he was a little too feminine!
That was it. I guess I was mean or fickle?! The truth is, one of the big reasons I dumped this guy is because we dated for 4 months and he never took me to meet his mother! She just lived a town over...in fact, HE LIVED WITH HER! He obviously didn't like me that much! He had met my parents twice and they lived an hour away.
So, I finally talked to D. It wasn't a pretty sight. He begged me not to break up with him. I told him that was ridiculous because we have NOTHING in common. And I told him just about everything I didn't like about him. Everything except the fact that he was a little too feminine!
That was it. I guess I was mean or fickle?! The truth is, one of the big reasons I dumped this guy is because we dated for 4 months and he never took me to meet his mother! She just lived a town over...in fact, HE LIVED WITH HER! He obviously didn't like me that much! He had met my parents twice and they lived an hour away.
Sometime in the early 90's
I could not think WHO this was from, even though it is signed. I didn't remember anyone by the name. I talked it over with Melanie & she reminded me it is from a guy a never dated or even liked. I once yelled at him for following me around, for a couple of hours at work, and he passed out!
Delilah,
Please don't throw this away without reading it. It will probably b the last time you hear from me. What went wrong between us? The last few times I've seen you , you have meade it clear that you don't like me anymore. Whatever I did to make you feel this way, I'm sorry. I never meant to hurt you in any way. I was only trying to show you how much you mean to me. I love you Delilah. You are the first woman who had really meant something to me. I have felt this way a long time. I knew if I ever told you how I felt, we would fall apart. Unfortunately, I was right. I can't stand the thought of youno longer being a part of my life. It seems that is now unavoidable. If this is really it for us, I beg you to blease tell me why. I need to know what I did to turn you against me like this. If there's anything I can do to fix our relationship, please let me know. If not, then I guess this is goodbye. I want you to know that if you should ever need anything, I will still be here for you. I am going to miss you. Goodbye Delilah. Ihope you will be able to forgive me someday. I cherishedour friendship while it lasted. I only wish it would have lasted a lot longer. Again I want to say I'm sorry. Goodbye.
Delilah,
Please don't throw this away without reading it. It will probably b the last time you hear from me. What went wrong between us? The last few times I've seen you , you have meade it clear that you don't like me anymore. Whatever I did to make you feel this way, I'm sorry. I never meant to hurt you in any way. I was only trying to show you how much you mean to me. I love you Delilah. You are the first woman who had really meant something to me. I have felt this way a long time. I knew if I ever told you how I felt, we would fall apart. Unfortunately, I was right. I can't stand the thought of youno longer being a part of my life. It seems that is now unavoidable. If this is really it for us, I beg you to blease tell me why. I need to know what I did to turn you against me like this. If there's anything I can do to fix our relationship, please let me know. If not, then I guess this is goodbye. I want you to know that if you should ever need anything, I will still be here for you. I am going to miss you. Goodbye Delilah. Ihope you will be able to forgive me someday. I cherishedour friendship while it lasted. I only wish it would have lasted a lot longer. Again I want to say I'm sorry. Goodbye.
September 22, 2005
Dear Delila & Jake,
After they "kidnapped" my rabbit family, they are holding them "hostage" until the "negotiations" and my "trial". How do I get "visitation rights"? I really do miss them all! Instead of coming home to "bouncing baby bunnies," there are only cold hard empty cages. It really is tearing me up inside. I keep calling the Humane Society, but no one answers the phone, or even returns my calls. Maybe you can do better on your computer. Please Try.
After they "kidnapped" my rabbit family, they are holding them "hostage" until the "negotiations" and my "trial". How do I get "visitation rights"? I really do miss them all! Instead of coming home to "bouncing baby bunnies," there are only cold hard empty cages. It really is tearing me up inside. I keep calling the Humane Society, but no one answers the phone, or even returns my calls. Maybe you can do better on your computer. Please Try.
Monday, September 26, 2005
November 12, 2000
This is a REAL letter. It is a good one. I wish you could see the drawings...but my scanner is already packed.
Delilah:
Hey there again! I'm terribly bored. I decided to write you. I really really enjoy writing letters. There is something so exciting about a blank piece of paper waiting to be filled with what ever I want to fill it with. Fun Fun Fun. You are probably that way about the telephone (and that is OK). Anyways I haven't heard form you in a while. I determined you were over due and decided to send this pre-emptive letter. Basically I chartedout the past incidences of our communications among probable outcomes into a matriz giving a zero-sum patter as this:
p(r)=p(5)(0)+p(4)1+(1-p)(2)1=4p-2+2p=6p-2
p(r)=p(5)1+(1-p)6=5p=6-6p=6-p
6p-2=6-p
5p=8
p=5/8
p1(0)=-2 p2(0)=6
p1(0)=4 p2(0)=5
Then plot to find maximini outcome assuming I want to maximize.
Then he mapped the coordinates using an x & y chart.
And then I integrate to find the area between the two curves as such (o,1)
((6-p+(6p+2))dx=(8-7p)dx=8p-7/2p=8-7/2=9/2
Finally I substituted this # into the summations which approximates the area of the orginal time graph (see last letter I sent you) as a 3-D representation. This of course is as such:
He wrote another equation using a bunch of math symbols I don't have readily ava. on my computer.
Today isn't the actual day, I adjusted 0.3567 hours for the shift in orbit of the earth as a result of the high rate in solar winds which cause time discrepencies, but almost negligable without a quantum computer and the avility to interate up to 800 decimal places given that one is considering a closed system as define by Newton and not the turbulent flow system as defined by strarkoutsy in his hyper-turbulent fluid dynamics theorem. You are probably considering a different set of variables. Anyways please write me or call me.
Sincerely,
D.S.
Delilah:
Hey there again! I'm terribly bored. I decided to write you. I really really enjoy writing letters. There is something so exciting about a blank piece of paper waiting to be filled with what ever I want to fill it with. Fun Fun Fun. You are probably that way about the telephone (and that is OK). Anyways I haven't heard form you in a while. I determined you were over due and decided to send this pre-emptive letter. Basically I chartedout the past incidences of our communications among probable outcomes into a matriz giving a zero-sum patter as this:
p(r)=p(5)(0)+p(4)1+(1-p)(2)1=4p-2+2p=6p-2
p(r)=p(5)1+(1-p)6=5p=6-6p=6-p
6p-2=6-p
5p=8
p=5/8
p1(0)=-2 p2(0)=6
p1(0)=4 p2(0)=5
Then plot to find maximini outcome assuming I want to maximize.
Then he mapped the coordinates using an x & y chart.
And then I integrate to find the area between the two curves as such (o,1)
((6-p+(6p+2))dx=(8-7p)dx=8p-7/2p=8-7/2=9/2
Finally I substituted this # into the summations which approximates the area of the orginal time graph (see last letter I sent you) as a 3-D representation. This of course is as such:
He wrote another equation using a bunch of math symbols I don't have readily ava. on my computer.
Today isn't the actual day, I adjusted 0.3567 hours for the shift in orbit of the earth as a result of the high rate in solar winds which cause time discrepencies, but almost negligable without a quantum computer and the avility to interate up to 800 decimal places given that one is considering a closed system as define by Newton and not the turbulent flow system as defined by strarkoutsy in his hyper-turbulent fluid dynamics theorem. You are probably considering a different set of variables. Anyways please write me or call me.
Sincerely,
D.S.
Sometime in Jan. '96
I wasn't planning to do this but here is a follow-up letter I came across today from the same boy I used to know.
Delilah,
It's 4:00 A.M. and I am very tired, but I can't sleep -suprise-. It's understandable, though.
After we got off the phone I called B. and told him about our breakup. He was sad, but he did a very good job just talking and getting me to laugh. B.T. is truely a wonderful man. I am exceptionally lucky to have him as a friend.
I want to thank you for letting me down so gently. Youwere very straight forward and honest. Now thta I think about it, those were the two things I liked about you very much. Perhaps sticking to your guns and being true to your feelings wasn't easy, as I kept asking you if you were sure, and telling you I didn't want to break up. This will keep it simple for hte both of us, though.
I am returning the tape you made, even though it was a gift. You see, while you were gone I would listen to it nearly every night and wonder if you were trying to tell me something with these songs. I guess I put too much into it, and now it carries too much emotion and meaning to have it lying about. Thank you though, it was a wonderful tape.
As far as us being friends, everything I told you still stands. I wish you understood more fully, but... I want you to know your every happy moment, your every sad moment will cause me pain, but I still will try to meet you half way, not because its immature not to, but because pain, along with fear must be faced. Through the pain I feel from past relationships is my most intense, perhaps that is al the more reason to face it.
I have to go now, I am sorry if the last paragraph upset you, but you must know.
Goodbye, D.L.
Delilah,
It's 4:00 A.M. and I am very tired, but I can't sleep -suprise-. It's understandable, though.
After we got off the phone I called B. and told him about our breakup. He was sad, but he did a very good job just talking and getting me to laugh. B.T. is truely a wonderful man. I am exceptionally lucky to have him as a friend.
I want to thank you for letting me down so gently. Youwere very straight forward and honest. Now thta I think about it, those were the two things I liked about you very much. Perhaps sticking to your guns and being true to your feelings wasn't easy, as I kept asking you if you were sure, and telling you I didn't want to break up. This will keep it simple for hte both of us, though.
I am returning the tape you made, even though it was a gift. You see, while you were gone I would listen to it nearly every night and wonder if you were trying to tell me something with these songs. I guess I put too much into it, and now it carries too much emotion and meaning to have it lying about. Thank you though, it was a wonderful tape.
As far as us being friends, everything I told you still stands. I wish you understood more fully, but... I want you to know your every happy moment, your every sad moment will cause me pain, but I still will try to meet you half way, not because its immature not to, but because pain, along with fear must be faced. Through the pain I feel from past relationships is my most intense, perhaps that is al the more reason to face it.
I have to go now, I am sorry if the last paragraph upset you, but you must know.
Goodbye, D.L.
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An old letter from this boy I used to know....
This letter has been building for a long time. Daily thoughts of writing this have come to me, always I put it off. Many times it was my prode that caused me not to write this. You see, since the night of the party when you spoke these words, "Sometimes I think you like me more than I like you." I have had a hard time dealing with this relationship.
My difficulties are rooted in not not knowing where we stand in relation to each other. We founded our relationship on an open agreement with no strict rules and a huge amount of trust in one another. This was ver beautiful, and worthy of us both. But now we are seperated by distance and time with only our ineria and our trust to keep us whole.
Ultimately I am a person who craves attention. Perhaps A. told you this. Without her, perhaps I never would have known. With this craving comes lonliness. Indeed lonliness and I are old friends, but it is not always so bad. Through lonliness I have learned to feel saddness, and loss, and love.
The purpose of this letter is not to beg for your attentions, or to warn or threaten you with my lonliness, but only to open up to you like I never have to anyone before. Doubt creeps into me about peeling my skin back in this way, to you now. The phrase I mentioned above, being the obvious instrument of my fear. With that phrase came the knowledge tha I was less to you than I thought, a terrible revelations. In deed I thought we were on the brink of something very fine and wonderful.
But do you remember discussing my beliefs on fear? How fear should never stop you from doing anything? That is something I must always try to incorporate into my life. It is not always wasy, and I do fail. I failed with L., I was scared and wouldn't fight. I wouln't have run, but I couln't bring myself to face him either. And so nw I am faced with another fearful choice to send you this, and with it a small piece of who I am, or to cower in fear.
My choice is made.
The last thing I have to say is- We are together by choice. To be where we are now...together. We both looked at the other and decided (somewhere) that the other was worthy. And we both took a chance. What this chance we took will come to, I don't know. But I do know, I am very glad to have taken it.
Delilah, I miss you very much.
D.L.
This letter has been building for a long time. Daily thoughts of writing this have come to me, always I put it off. Many times it was my prode that caused me not to write this. You see, since the night of the party when you spoke these words, "Sometimes I think you like me more than I like you." I have had a hard time dealing with this relationship.
My difficulties are rooted in not not knowing where we stand in relation to each other. We founded our relationship on an open agreement with no strict rules and a huge amount of trust in one another. This was ver beautiful, and worthy of us both. But now we are seperated by distance and time with only our ineria and our trust to keep us whole.
Ultimately I am a person who craves attention. Perhaps A. told you this. Without her, perhaps I never would have known. With this craving comes lonliness. Indeed lonliness and I are old friends, but it is not always so bad. Through lonliness I have learned to feel saddness, and loss, and love.
The purpose of this letter is not to beg for your attentions, or to warn or threaten you with my lonliness, but only to open up to you like I never have to anyone before. Doubt creeps into me about peeling my skin back in this way, to you now. The phrase I mentioned above, being the obvious instrument of my fear. With that phrase came the knowledge tha I was less to you than I thought, a terrible revelations. In deed I thought we were on the brink of something very fine and wonderful.
But do you remember discussing my beliefs on fear? How fear should never stop you from doing anything? That is something I must always try to incorporate into my life. It is not always wasy, and I do fail. I failed with L., I was scared and wouldn't fight. I wouln't have run, but I couln't bring myself to face him either. And so nw I am faced with another fearful choice to send you this, and with it a small piece of who I am, or to cower in fear.
My choice is made.
The last thing I have to say is- We are together by choice. To be where we are now...together. We both looked at the other and decided (somewhere) that the other was worthy. And we both took a chance. What this chance we took will come to, I don't know. But I do know, I am very glad to have taken it.
Delilah, I miss you very much.
D.L.
Sunday, September 25, 2005
November 1997
This letter was written on toilet paper and sent from a tent-living, tree hugging Artist in Colorado.
Howdy,
Howdy is a strange word. How is Ohio going this November. I hope the weather is not too depressing this time of year. I would always get sad in Oct, Nov due to the overcast skys and homogenus color of the ground. Sorry I haven't written in a while but I will write more. I've been busy getting ready for my season of riding on snow. I got my 5 mth pass so my recreation time is taken care of for 5 months. I'm at work right now and some strange dude walked into my office and asked me to read for him. He had this bottle of medicine and could not figure out his dosage. Why ME? Of course I declined to help him for I fear a lawsuit. So how is college life? Fun Fun Fun. I'm glad to hear you are going on a trip in December. That would be delightful if you came to Colorado to visit. How is everybody doing that I haven't heard from in a while; the Newly Weds, Big J. Stud, DJ S. and the state of Ohio. Work has been work. It seems I am always fixing another mans f*** up. That is what they call life. I want to comment to comment of the photos, and all that. I thought the xerox was a great way to send pictures. I'm sort of art starved lately. I miss all the tools fo creation I used to play with. I went to Vegas last week-end to see Primus and had a grand old time in the city of gluttuny. You simply must go if you ever have the chance. It's only 10 hours from here. I'd love to take the guys down there. That town has J.W. written all over it. I got wiped out on Black Jack the first night but won the second and bought my concert ticket with the winnings. Have I got the sloppy hand writing or what. Me, B. & F. took my car down to the city where the devil dwells. I swear he must live there, that's the reason it is so f****** hot. The food there is the best for two reasons 1. Prime Rib Buffet $2.99 2. There are at least 1000 deals like #1. I love to eat. I could eat all day. I tried to do three buffets in one day and was rendered useless. You see I have been eating and working out every night so I cannot eat enought. F. has got a tag to shoot an elk soon. That will be a cool 500 lbs. of meat to chew on so I won't have to b**** much longer. More and more tourists and skiers are coming to Summit County these days. They roll in their expensive recreation 4-wheel drive cares and are all decked out in there outdoor gear and can't even deal with a flat tire. How can you make $150,000 a year and not know how to light your gas furnace? No common sense. The uppper middle class of this country are controlled by men who are afraid of their pampered wives. The blind leading the blind. Ramble on young solider. I saw Starship Troopers and can honestly say it wan't bad for $4.00, for a sci-fi. Closing Thought. You Don't Have to Wash to Be Clean.
P.S. Don't wipe your a** with my art work.
R.M. '97
Howdy,
Howdy is a strange word. How is Ohio going this November. I hope the weather is not too depressing this time of year. I would always get sad in Oct, Nov due to the overcast skys and homogenus color of the ground. Sorry I haven't written in a while but I will write more. I've been busy getting ready for my season of riding on snow. I got my 5 mth pass so my recreation time is taken care of for 5 months. I'm at work right now and some strange dude walked into my office and asked me to read for him. He had this bottle of medicine and could not figure out his dosage. Why ME? Of course I declined to help him for I fear a lawsuit. So how is college life? Fun Fun Fun. I'm glad to hear you are going on a trip in December. That would be delightful if you came to Colorado to visit. How is everybody doing that I haven't heard from in a while; the Newly Weds, Big J. Stud, DJ S. and the state of Ohio. Work has been work. It seems I am always fixing another mans f*** up. That is what they call life. I want to comment to comment of the photos, and all that. I thought the xerox was a great way to send pictures. I'm sort of art starved lately. I miss all the tools fo creation I used to play with. I went to Vegas last week-end to see Primus and had a grand old time in the city of gluttuny. You simply must go if you ever have the chance. It's only 10 hours from here. I'd love to take the guys down there. That town has J.W. written all over it. I got wiped out on Black Jack the first night but won the second and bought my concert ticket with the winnings. Have I got the sloppy hand writing or what. Me, B. & F. took my car down to the city where the devil dwells. I swear he must live there, that's the reason it is so f****** hot. The food there is the best for two reasons 1. Prime Rib Buffet $2.99 2. There are at least 1000 deals like #1. I love to eat. I could eat all day. I tried to do three buffets in one day and was rendered useless. You see I have been eating and working out every night so I cannot eat enought. F. has got a tag to shoot an elk soon. That will be a cool 500 lbs. of meat to chew on so I won't have to b**** much longer. More and more tourists and skiers are coming to Summit County these days. They roll in their expensive recreation 4-wheel drive cares and are all decked out in there outdoor gear and can't even deal with a flat tire. How can you make $150,000 a year and not know how to light your gas furnace? No common sense. The uppper middle class of this country are controlled by men who are afraid of their pampered wives. The blind leading the blind. Ramble on young solider. I saw Starship Troopers and can honestly say it wan't bad for $4.00, for a sci-fi. Closing Thought. You Don't Have to Wash to Be Clean.
P.S. Don't wipe your a** with my art work.
R.M. '97
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